I Shall Lose

Yesterday was my weekly weigh in at Weight Watchers, however I was so busy that I did not get a chance to post my results. I lost 3.2 pounds this past week. I am super excited about this number, however I am a tad upset that I chose to celebrate with food. I have to change the way I celebrate small goals and victories. Over the past two and a half years I have always celebrated something by going out to dinner and ordering my favorite food. This can't continue as it will catch up with me. I am happy that I noticed this today so that I can give some attention to this behavior and fix it. I know that I will correct this, so no worries.

This is a very short post as I am going to go pack my gym bag and get ready to watch the Apprentice. I hope you all had a wonderful weekend.

Drum roll please.....today was my first weigh in at Weight Watchers and I am happy to report that I lost 4 pounds today. I was excited for the loss, but more importantly proud that I was on plan the entire week. It was not an easy week at all and because of it I only focused on following the WW plan and didn't exercise. It was overwhelming trying to track and plan, but I believe that is expected during the first week, maybe the first couple of weeks. All in all it was a good week.

Today's meeting subject was geared around portion control. It was something I definitely needed as there was some hidden things I was doing that was talked about today. One of those items was just writing down what I eat instead of adding a value to it...for instance, if I ate a piece of cake, I would write down only cake and not whether it was an entire cake, a slice of cake or a sliver of cake. I need to hold myself more accountable in being a tad more detailed in my tracking. I think this will be beneficial if I ever had to go back look over my tracker to see what I ate on a successful week. I will plan this week to do a better job at tracking more detailed.

This upcoming week I will be focusing on getting more veggies in. Last week for my healthy guidelines I ate more fruit than veggies. While this is okay and I was on plan, I would like to eat more veggies as veggies have a great amount of awards in eating them. They also have more fiber than fruit. Nothing major to tweak, but this is something I want to focus on. I will also attend the gym 3 times this week. If I attend it more than the 3 days, all the better, but my goal is three days. I believe that is very doable.

Here is to an awesome week, I hope your upcoming week was better then this past week.

Wow, I really did it, I walked back into a Weight Watchers meeting on Saturday morning. Whew, the hard part is over. I say the hard part because I was so nervous to walk back into a Weight Watchers meeting, as I just didn't know what to expect. Would the people in the meeting remember me and noticed that I failed? Would it be the same leader that would say something totally off the wall to me? Would I know any one in the meeting and get embarrassed? What would it be like? I couldn't sleep on Friday night as I was going over and over in my head what my big day back at Weight Watchers would be like....let me tell you it was awesome. I felt sooooooooo proud of myself to have enough courage, despite what I was feeling to walk back into Weight Watchers ready to take back control over my life....AWESOME AWESOME AWESOME!!!

In my last post I mentioned that I was not going to look at my first weigh in weight. After contemplating this for several hours, I made the decision to look at it. It is who I am now, it is not what I will be. I need to understand and know my weight so that I can help myself get healthy. It is not about the number on the scale, it is about doing the things I need to do to make me healthy, to make me live as long as I can with minimum to no health concerns. I am elated to have looked at my weight on day 1. You can see my stats here.

Today is day 3 on plan and I had an awesome day. I went to workout at 5:30 a.m. where I did the elliptical for 30 minutes non-stop, can we say major NSV? I also had a perfect day on plan eating wise. I feel good, I really do. I know that I will have some bad days, we all do, but I will push on as long as I can breathe. This is amazing, I feel great, I can't believe it.

Now I am off to relax a bit and watch a little television before I call it quits for the night. I must get some rest so that I can wake in the a.m. for my workout : )

Tomorrow is the big day. I am super excited, but oh I am so nervous. This is what I have been waiting for all week, to walk into a Weight Watchers meeting for the first time in two years. It is a scary feeling. The unknown is really making me anxious, but tomorrow all of this will end. I will do it!!!!

Back in 2008 I was a member of WW and was successful, losing close to 40 pounds. It was the last time I remember being happy. The program was easy to follow and I did with no problem. After losing the 40 pounds, I got the big head and thought that I could stop tracking my foods and eyeball my portions by estimating what the points would be. This turned out to lead me to two straight gains and since those two meetings I have not been back to Weight Watchers. Scary I know, but oh so true.

This time around, I will not allow a gain at the scare keep me away from my weekly meeting. My plan is to attend the meeting every week unless there is something MAJOR happening where I can not. Again I am excited, I pray that this is the time that I will lose the unwanted weight, FOREVER. I know I am not ready to face my initial weight, so I have decided not to look at the first weigh in amount, but instead I will go through a week on plan and hopefully lose and next week at weigh in I will know how much I weigh. I hope this works.

I have cleaned out my home of all of the crap and tomorrow after my meeting I will go grocery shopping with the point slider to purchase groceries. I used to love doing this back in 2008 when I was on program.

Well this is it, I am ready....ready to rock and lose : )