I Shall Lose

Yesterday was my weekly weigh in at Weight Watchers, however I was so busy that I did not get a chance to post my results. I lost 3.2 pounds this past week. I am super excited about this number, however I am a tad upset that I chose to celebrate with food. I have to change the way I celebrate small goals and victories. Over the past two and a half years I have always celebrated something by going out to dinner and ordering my favorite food. This can't continue as it will catch up with me. I am happy that I noticed this today so that I can give some attention to this behavior and fix it. I know that I will correct this, so no worries.

This is a very short post as I am going to go pack my gym bag and get ready to watch the Apprentice. I hope you all had a wonderful weekend.

1. Food Is My Booty Call
2. The Honey B
3. Half of Jess

1. 1. I am a lover of traveling. I would travel full time if I could afford it. I have been to four countries thus far, with hopes of traveling to as many more countries as I can. I also would love to visit each state that makes up the U.S.A once. I am pretty close, need to tally the total up.
   


2. 2. I totally enjoy scrapbooking, it brings me joy. There is nothing like relaxing with a nice bottle of water (used to be soda) with some nice music and my scrapping supplies creating art. I sometimes impress myself with some of the designs I come up with (by the way, I do not scrapbook digitally, maybe one day).


3. 3. I would love to start my own non-profit organization some day. I have at least two ideas that I probably should start and put into play. I believe that my weight hinders what I do, as I think people are staring at me most times when around people I do not know. This is a major reason why I have not done more to put my ideas into place.
   


4. 4. I have two major fears in life, fire and huge bodies of water ie lakes, ocean. You probably can understand the fear of fire, but for the huge bodies of water, I can't swim.


5. 5. I would totally love to relocate to Toronto or Chicago. I love those two cities!!!


6. 6. I absolutely adore my husband. He is my best friend as well as my lover.


7. 7. I would love to learn sign language. I have always been fascinated with it.
   

Drum roll please.....today was my first weigh in at Weight Watchers and I am happy to report that I lost 4 pounds today. I was excited for the loss, but more importantly proud that I was on plan the entire week. It was not an easy week at all and because of it I only focused on following the WW plan and didn't exercise. It was overwhelming trying to track and plan, but I believe that is expected during the first week, maybe the first couple of weeks. All in all it was a good week.

Today's meeting subject was geared around portion control. It was something I definitely needed as there was some hidden things I was doing that was talked about today. One of those items was just writing down what I eat instead of adding a value to it...for instance, if I ate a piece of cake, I would write down only cake and not whether it was an entire cake, a slice of cake or a sliver of cake. I need to hold myself more accountable in being a tad more detailed in my tracking. I think this will be beneficial if I ever had to go back look over my tracker to see what I ate on a successful week. I will plan this week to do a better job at tracking more detailed.

This upcoming week I will be focusing on getting more veggies in. Last week for my healthy guidelines I ate more fruit than veggies. While this is okay and I was on plan, I would like to eat more veggies as veggies have a great amount of awards in eating them. They also have more fiber than fruit. Nothing major to tweak, but this is something I want to focus on. I will also attend the gym 3 times this week. If I attend it more than the 3 days, all the better, but my goal is three days. I believe that is very doable.

Here is to an awesome week, I hope your upcoming week was better then this past week.

After reading tons and tons of blog posts, weight loss articles and recent twitter time lines, I have noticed that there are many people who associate numbers with weight loss. For instance, first and foremost, the amount the scale says is most times always used as a measurement of ones weight loss success, as it should be. Secondly, calculating ones Body Mass Index (BMI) is another number used to measure weight loss success. Thirdly, the amount of time spent working out or the length one walks/runs a mile(s) is used as well. There are many more values in the form of numbers that one may use to help aid them or help measure success when it comes to weight loss. Don't get me wrong I see the association, but I never really thought of which of the many numbers I would use to help aid me in losing the weight I desire. Since then I have now determined which number values I will follow closely as I complete my journey in losing over 100 pounds and they are:

1. The value seen on the scale - Of course, this is probably the most used measurement any one who is targeting weight loss uses. Now I have promised myself not to get obsessed with the value the scale says or even become obsessed with weighing daily, but I definitely will use it to help measure my weight. Since this Saturday, the scales said I weigh 323.8.

2. BMI - after carefully reading and understanding what BMI represents, I now will use this as a number value to help me along my journey of weight loss. Currently my BMI is 52.1, which is morbid obese.

3. Weight Watchers - following the Weight Watchers plan, I will definitely keep track of my daily points to help me reach my goal.

For now this is as far of a 'Numbers Game' I will play as I do not want to get to overwhelmed. As I get farther down the road in my journey I will revisit the 'Numbers Game' and see what other number value I can add to help aid me in weight loss.

Which 'Number Game' do you play?


...I know it is not truly a numbers game, as it is real life, but for the sake of this post, I will use that title...

Wow, I really did it, I walked back into a Weight Watchers meeting on Saturday morning. Whew, the hard part is over. I say the hard part because I was so nervous to walk back into a Weight Watchers meeting, as I just didn't know what to expect. Would the people in the meeting remember me and noticed that I failed? Would it be the same leader that would say something totally off the wall to me? Would I know any one in the meeting and get embarrassed? What would it be like? I couldn't sleep on Friday night as I was going over and over in my head what my big day back at Weight Watchers would be like....let me tell you it was awesome. I felt sooooooooo proud of myself to have enough courage, despite what I was feeling to walk back into Weight Watchers ready to take back control over my life....AWESOME AWESOME AWESOME!!!

In my last post I mentioned that I was not going to look at my first weigh in weight. After contemplating this for several hours, I made the decision to look at it. It is who I am now, it is not what I will be. I need to understand and know my weight so that I can help myself get healthy. It is not about the number on the scale, it is about doing the things I need to do to make me healthy, to make me live as long as I can with minimum to no health concerns. I am elated to have looked at my weight on day 1. You can see my stats here.

Today is day 3 on plan and I had an awesome day. I went to workout at 5:30 a.m. where I did the elliptical for 30 minutes non-stop, can we say major NSV? I also had a perfect day on plan eating wise. I feel good, I really do. I know that I will have some bad days, we all do, but I will push on as long as I can breathe. This is amazing, I feel great, I can't believe it.

Now I am off to relax a bit and watch a little television before I call it quits for the night. I must get some rest so that I can wake in the a.m. for my workout : )

Tomorrow is the big day. I am super excited, but oh I am so nervous. This is what I have been waiting for all week, to walk into a Weight Watchers meeting for the first time in two years. It is a scary feeling. The unknown is really making me anxious, but tomorrow all of this will end. I will do it!!!!

Back in 2008 I was a member of WW and was successful, losing close to 40 pounds. It was the last time I remember being happy. The program was easy to follow and I did with no problem. After losing the 40 pounds, I got the big head and thought that I could stop tracking my foods and eyeball my portions by estimating what the points would be. This turned out to lead me to two straight gains and since those two meetings I have not been back to Weight Watchers. Scary I know, but oh so true.

This time around, I will not allow a gain at the scare keep me away from my weekly meeting. My plan is to attend the meeting every week unless there is something MAJOR happening where I can not. Again I am excited, I pray that this is the time that I will lose the unwanted weight, FOREVER. I know I am not ready to face my initial weight, so I have decided not to look at the first weigh in amount, but instead I will go through a week on plan and hopefully lose and next week at weigh in I will know how much I weigh. I hope this works.

I have cleaned out my home of all of the crap and tomorrow after my meeting I will go grocery shopping with the point slider to purchase groceries. I used to love doing this back in 2008 when I was on program.

Well this is it, I am ready....ready to rock and lose : )